A Spectre of The Zealous Mind

[Aristarchus]

-"I would, but my god would be angered by such actions. My god does not care much for religion, other gods, and those of faith."

-I close my eyes and continue to listen to the conversation.

-"But I will consider it."

[Sephos]

"Alright."

I stand up and stub my cigarette out on the toe of my boot.

I haven't had to do this for awhile. I flex my shoulders and grimace as wings tear through my skin and clothing and unfurl. S'hit, that hurts! I stand there for awhile, moving my unused wings slowly to get used to them.

"Moscow then." I look at Bassarov and push off from the ground, flapping my large, white feathered wings slowly sending leaves scattering in the rush of wind.

I fly away from the woods and the "rebel base". I head to Moscow. The trip is long and tiring, and I am not used to using my wings. I have tried to give up on my angelic side, since I hate angels.

I finally land down in front of a battered looking building. A bunch of ragged looking people stare at me, and I realize that not many people sporting huge pairs of wings probably come by here. I focus and the wings retreat back inside of me. My skin oozes a little blood where they had been. D'amn, that really hurts!!! I am glad I don't have to do that very f'ucking often.

I knock on the door.

[Aristarchus]

My mouth waters at the angel.

-Angels are my favorite food.

-I consider transforming into my true form and eating her then and there.

-But I look at Chastity and know I can not.

-"What brings you here, angel?"

[Sephos]

I cringe at the use of the word "angel". I do not care to be classified as such.

"I'm looking for a group called Eternal Light. I heard that they might be here."

I look around at the small group of people standing around in the kitchen. My back kills, and I light up a cigarette, inhaling deeply to try to take my mind off of it.

Most of the people in the room look pretty destitute. The man that answered the door does not. He looks pretty well taken care of and also kind of haughty. There is another man dressed in some sort of robes. The person that catches my attention the most is a small girl. Her face shines with something that I can't begin to describe. She radiates kindness and purity. She is beautiful.

I realize that I am staring, and look down at the floor.

"So, do I have the right place?"#nosmileys

[Rodthingy Maestro-Reborn]

"Eternal Light, yes. I am Rodthingy Meastro, co-leader. Do you seek to join, angel? I have yet to aquire an angel in my ranks. Also, i can heal your back if you wish, sure looks like that stings. I always wanted to be an angel, but now, im not so sure. And Aries, i can read your mind, but i don't have to. We don't eat angels in front of women and children."

[Sephos]

I look at Aries, the one that opened the door.

"Want to eat me, huh? Nice."

I walk past him, into the room. My eyes glancing at the girl and then back to the man in the robes.

"No, Rodderick, I actually have no desire to join. I am not very fu.." I look over at the girl, for some reason I don't want to swear in front of her. I feel very uncomfortable. "I am not very religious."

I take another drag off of my cig, I am feeling very out of place. "I am with a group of socialists, we are puting on a concert to try to unite those that would stand against the evils of Red Inifinity. I was asked to come here and invite your organization to come."

[Aristarchus]

This is my lucky day. All of this information will be useful to the League. I do not care if that human can read my thoughts. I can eat him if I want to. He is no threat to me.

-"I did want to eat you my dear, the meat would have a bitter...smokey flavour."

-I sit on my stool and continue to listen.

[Chastity]

The girl keeps staring at me. Everyone around me keeps referring to her as an angel. I believe very much in the exsistance of angels, and I see two wounds on her back, where wings might have been.

She seems nervous, I get a strange feeling from her. I have never heard of a socialist angel before. Perhaps she is a fallen angel? I have never thought of an angel as someone that would smoke cigarettes or get piercings either. Maybe she isn't an angel afterall.

[Rodthingy Maestro-Reborn]

"my organization would be glad to come, thank you. Who is incharge of this event, so i may thank them?"

Rod drawss out a pack of gum and pulls out a slice. He puts it in his mouth and chews. He always hated smoking, but it was okay to be near once and a while.

[Sephos]

"The man you want to thank is Bassarov." I hand Rodderick a card with the information about the concert on it.

I look Aries in the face. "Looks like smoking is good for my health afterall." I laugh lightly.

"Well then, this was rather painless. I guess my job here is done." I look again at the girl, who is looking straight at me. I blush slightly and smoke my cigarette, which is now dwindling down to its end.

[Rodthingy Maestro-Reborn]

"Well, Chastity, that would be another benifit for joining my organization. A concert to attend, courtesy of the famous Bassarov, Rebel extrodanair. I tried to meet him once, but he was to busy. Don't you young girls like concerts and stuff?"

He held out the pack of gum to her "Gum?" I asked. I would offer it to Aries, but evidently he only eats people.

[Chastity]

I decline the gum.

"I like that you try to promote peace. I believe very strongly in peace. I would like to learn more about your organization. I cannot lend my full support, but I would like to go to some meetings with you, if you have any, and find out more.

I would like to go to this concert, thank you."

I look at the girl with her cigarette.

"Can I offer you a drink of water before you go?"

[Aristarchus]

I watch the woman leave. Time to report this to the League.

-"I must depart now, so long."

-I leave the shelter and transform

-I fly toward St. Petersburg to the Leauge of the Godless.

[Rodthingy Maestro-Reborn]

"Well, we are really just starting up. However, our temple was destroyed by the very group that your freind Aries belongs to. The League of the Godless. Oh, well, its god's will. Of corse, if you join, you are welcome to live in my next temple. Yu are welcom to bring your shelter along with you. Here is my card, with numbers and the former adress of my temple. Call me if you need anything else. If you don't need anything more, i have buisness to attend to at the League of the Godless. Good Day"

He wated for her response to leave.

[Sephos]

((I didn't leave yet, dragon breath!))

"Yes, thank you, I would love a glass of water."

The girl, who I gather her name is Chastity, goes to the sink and runs a glass of water. She hands it to me, and my fingers touch hers for just a moment. I feel a stirring inside of me and quickly break contact and drink the glass of water.

"I hope to see you at the concert then. I will be reading some of my poetry there. It is sure to be a good time."

I walk toward the door. "Until then."

I go outside and feel foolish for all of the things that I said. I realize that I am infatuated with the pale, thin Chastity.

I cry out as the wings break through my skin once again. I hold back the urge to swear, since I am afraid that she might hear. I spread my feathers and take to the sky. My mind is occupied with thoughts of someone that I am sure I cannot have, which makes me desire her even more. She was like a shining beacon in this dark world.

I fly back to Helsinki, and when I land, climb up into a tree to smoke and think and write down my thoughts.