Battles Which Could Not Be Won

[Asher]

Asher was confused. She wanted to laugh at the feelings pouring out of her. She wanted to go back down to the dungeon and whip one for making her do this. She wanted to cause pain to fix herself. Something felt broken. She wiped her face and looked to him. Part of her wanted to throw him from her for having pity on her.

How dare he feel pity for HER. It was his fault she let things get this far. Let her emotions run wild. Humans were weak. Thats why she was such a strong person. She had thought...

Her human side tried to remain in control. She fought so hard it literally hurt which didn't help...since pain felt good to her.

But this felt different. It actually was uncomfortable. Like someone was squeezing her heart. She felt stiffled. Asher turned and held onto Jon. Her hands touching his neck and his lower back. She buried her face in his neck.

"What have i done Jon? I have broken me. Something is not right anymore. I feel something....something i never felt before. Whats wrong with me. I...I...why does it HURT?...i never hurt."

[Satsujin]

The spikes, once repelled by her helping hands, are detatched from the black sphere. The two detatched spikes streak toward Satsujin, striking his body. As they hit, they do not peirce however, but are obsourbed back into his body.
With a wave of his hand a black portal instantly appears below the two.

"These are not shadows... Haha!"

The portal suddenly bends, curving up and around them to envelope both in a blanket of darkness. It cannot get through the shield she had set up, but it was continually constricting down on it, squeezing the shield ever tighter. Satsujin's face appears in the black cover, able to be seen through the shield.

"If I cant get through your shield, by all means stay there, and I will crush you in it."

[Jon Talbain]

"It hurts because the beast isn't in control, not fully. The beast loves pain, it lives on pain because pain part of instinct. But the senitent part, the human part, doesn't like pain. You experience pleasure in place of pain because you live with the beast but now there is a wedge between you. You can fall back, let the beast catch you, and lose everything. Or you can bear it, and move forwards. Well Asher? Are you so weak without the beast that you have to go running back to it the moment that it hurts just a little?"

He looks her in the eyes, knowing he's treading dangerous ground. Asher has great pride in herself but he's hoping that this offensive statement will help modivate her to keep going. She had to keep going, she was making progress. He remembered how hard it was when he first had to master the beast during the day light. He still could not at night sometimes, but for years it had hurt like a b'itch to fight it.

[Riku]

raven
i grin slightly. but satsujin, if she puts the shield down. i could just cast my shield which since the place is now dark, it'll be close to impossible to make it move an inch... or i could just do this.... i glance at sonjia who was coghing up the black ooze still. i frown slightly, ~sonjia*trust me...~. i grin and a hole opens in my hand as bionanomachines pour out into the shield, they cover the walls and then start to press against us as the space fills up. the bionanomachines around our face produce oxygen and put the carbon dioxide away to the shield through the others, more bionanomachines continual to pour out of my hand and press outward on the shield stopping his technique from pressing inward.

[Roane]

She smiles at him.

Well Grove...you are welcome to stay with me as long as you can stand me. I like having you around. And besides you have seen me naked...it takes awhile to break in a new man.

She laughed hoping to relieve some of the embarrassment she just caused herself. WHy did she say that? She took a large gulp of water.

[Kazenara Miyajima]

Kaze frowned and pouted."But i thought you said you could control it. I don't want you to leave."
Wrapping her arms around his neck and kissed him pulling him close.

[Tsubaki]

"Oh, Lady Violet its nothing really. I'll gladly go to the park with you. It's a peaceful place to talk." I said. We get to the park Hikari starts playing on the slide. Me and Violet sit on a bench. "So Violet, I've seen you have overworked yourself. You shpuld relax for a while." I said

[Asher]

For a moment she is offended and pushes her head away from him looking into his face. She growls at him but quickly pushes it down.

"Weak? Jon i have been dealt far worse pain than this and survived. Pain is a repentance...and even if i feel real pain it still is my repentance. I shall endure it as i need to. But what happens to me now? How can i live like this when you might change? I would have to snap back if that happens."

She pulls away and stands feeling foolish for kneeling on the floor. She goes and sits on the bed with her head in her hands. She wants him to come beside of her. He calms her somehow.

"If this is how it feels Jon...how did you endure it for so long? How will i? I am afraid."

things are so different now. She never thought that she would be trying to be more like the ones who made her. SHe had always been content to be the monster. But now she didn't want to be alone anymore. She wanted to be loved. She was afraid to be alone again.

[John]

i frown and kiss her. no i cant control it during the full moon... but i can any other time.... . i smile slightly. ... i could cast a barrier over a room to stay during the whole day...

[Cheshire]

After a huge nap I get up and get ready to go out. I see Akari in my office. "I see you've made it in one peace. Be comfertable, protect the office till I come back, whose your friend? Will I 've got to be going thiers guest rooms in this building if your tired. I'll be back soon." I said and dissappered. I apper outside the ministry of elements building. I see a little qurrel going on. I walk by them. "Well, well, well. What is going on here? In the Ministry of Elements restricted area, little rulebreakers are among us. " i said shanking my finger with closed eyes. I then smile and flash my eyes open. "But since when did anybody followed the rules." I said

[Akari]

Akari
I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion,
"You live in Canada? What are you doing all the way here in Beijing? You're seriously walking home??" I asked her incrediously.
I then heard her thoughts and smirked. I bowed kindly and raised my eyes to her.
"You shouldn't be afraid of me, it is alright. I might change my mind if you say something about me being weak again" I informed her with a knowing look.

Hikari
I smiled and slid down the slide at the playground and squealed in happiness as i slid down the bigger and faster slides. I jumped off and started swinging, i started humming a childish song and happily swayed.
I noticed Tsubaki was still there talking to Lady Violet.
"Lady Violet! Wanna swing with me or push me??" I shouted out with a bright and cute smile.

[Kazenara Miyajima]

"If you want but I'm staying I hope you do know that right?" Kaze said as she intrupted him by kissing him deeply as she pulled him closer.

[Akari]

Akari
I nodded at Cheshire with a smile.
"Thank you, and i'll make sure the building is as it was when u leave. And this is Kisa, she's not intentionally my friend but yeah... Ok, goodbye!" I informed him and waved as he left.

[Jon Talbain]

"You endure. You find something to hold onto, a light in the darkness. Anything human. The beast lives in the depths of you mind, it lives on anger and pain because that is all it knows. The beast is no evil, it is the defense of your instincts, your defender. But in this world it has little place, and it feels neglected.

Hold anything human, anything but anger or pain. Pride, arrogance, even joy, all are of the sentient mind. Anything that humans can feel and animals can not will hold you against the beast, anchor your sentient mind down. I live off hope, hope that I can he human. Think Asher, think of anything that an animal would never know and it will help."

Jon crawls onto the bed, kneeling besides Asher, his hands on her shoulder, gripping her tightly, trying to look her in the eye. This speech is hurt a little by my own changes. But there's not time to try and push them down, Asher needs support now.

[Kisa Higurashi]

Well, actually I'm flying home. I smiled meekly, then rose up into the air to prove that I can fly.

I'm sorry about thinking of you as a weak girl...but can you not read my mind anymore? It's getting annoying.